Monday's off to a Good Start?!!!

So I am sitting here after reading my girlfriends hilarious blog and decided it's time to do something productive with my day. It's been almost 2 years basking in unemployment with no real job in sight and I need something to do other than stare at the walls and eat Chips Ahoy!!! What started out as aggressive job searching, appointments with recruiters and sporadic interviews (both in person and via telephone) for a year and a half, has dwindled down to my downright refusal, and I mean OBJECTION in it's very form, to look for work. It's as simple as that. What I thought I was:  career oriented, super worker with home life in order) is actually not the case. This depressing state of flux is temporary though--really it is!!! I state the word "temporary" to booster my confidence because right now it' s in the gutter. I do know my capabilities and skills, but they haven't been used in quite some time. There are obvious doubts running through my head, especially when finding used bubble gum wrappers in my pockets are the highlights of my day. In all honesty, I do know my skill sets. I know they will be utilized again at some point. In the meantime, I think it's vital to stick with confidence boosting/bolstering statements, not to sound selfish, but just in case I decide to throw myself against the wall.  OK getting back. It's been roughly 1 year and 8 months of no real work. The holidays came and went. The creeping annoying messages that are nestled deep in my head refuse to leave. "I need to start looking for work"!!! "I need a JOB!!!" The key word here is "refusal" or better yet "objection" since I find it repulsive that after so long I must continue my job search!!! Both conflicting thoughts are now boxing in the ring.  It's "I need a job" VS " I don't want to look for one" and at this point I'm not sure which one will win. For now I will let the boxing match continue--after all I lost count after round 10. So it' s Monday. I ran, took a nap, walked the dog and ate a semi-healthy breakfast of egg whites, onion and pepper only to be followed by sugared iced coffee and 4 Chips Ahoy.   Horrible I know.  I will say this though. There is something to be said about spending quality time with my adorable English Bulldog Tyson, working out and attempting to look like a well adjusted citizen.  There is something to be said about receiving lifesaving emails from far distant friends. Thank God for my friends blog posting. It prompted me to write this excerpt and maybe I'll write some more.  Who knows.  Monday turned out to not be so bad after all.